Confidence in God

Some days I feel like such an idiot.  How often in the Bible does God save his people?  How many times does God tell us to trust in Him and devote our lives to Him and when we do or when His people do God never fails to keep His promises?  But yet even after God has revealed himself to me more than just once, I doubt over and over whether He will come through for me.  And can you just imagine with me...He does!

The end of the summer is wrapping up here in Denver and I realize that all of my expectations coming into this summer was nothing more than me hoping for a plan to go the way I wanted it to go.  Mid-way through the summer I started questioning God.  What is my purpose here?  How are you going to use me?  How will you reveal yourself to me?  What is up your sleeve?  I wasn't frustrated, I was confused.

My amazing advisor (Micah) had told me it will probably get worse before it gets better.  He was absolutely correct.  I became frustrated with my devotion time planning, frustrated with the youth because I know they are so great and I have such high expectations for them, concerned with, again, what I was supposed to be in Denver for.

These past two weeks have come together truly in Gods name.  He has showed me how throughout the entire summer He has revealed himself and has been there with me, the youth, and the congregation.  School has started for these wonderful young adults and stress has been rising but at the same time there is an environment that has been fought with and has been building here every week which.  They will continue to challenge themselves as I step away for a while and God is at work in every one of them including their surrounding support (church, family, friends).

It gives me great excitement to be able to leave and know that God is still at work in my heart and life and there is so much more to come.  And I am ready to let myself be formed by Him throughout this next year.  It's about prayer and our open attitude toward Him, not about what may go wrong, but about how it may be different than we expect but most likely better.